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An Interesting Theory

21 Jan

If you read enough philosophy, metaphysics or any other discipline for people with too much free time and no job, you will come across an idea about time and dimensions. Specifically, that all time exists at once. Time as the fourth dimension. However, us humans, being three-dimensional creatures cannot perceive it this way and thus travel linearly through time. If you percolate on this concept long enough, it can become unendingly interesting. Just as the metaphoric two-dimensional Flatlanders can’t see depth, so too can we not see time. Except, as it turns out, in Istanbul.

Walking through this city, this crossroads of civilizations, you can see through the centuries. As you walk through the Grand Bazaar, to the superficial eye you see only knockoff handbags, apple tea and pushy salesmen. The only obvious hints at its age and experience are the tiles on the ceiling and the date on each of its entrances – 1461. However, as you let yourself sink into the place and get lost amongst the aimless corridors time can appear to fold on itself. You can see it not as item on the standard tourist checklist, but as the center of commerce and finance in the known civilized world, 500 years in the past. The obnoxiously ostentatious tour buses that park themselves along every neighboring street, like the Bazaar’s personal city walls, they fade away. Instead, you see them as modern-day camels, donkeys, horses and carriages. You can see the Indian tea leaves, the Persian saffron as they journey to the market, now manifested in the powdered and packaged apple tea. Chinese silk that once traveled across a continent to be traded here, has so too traveled through the centuries to become the soft and ornate scarves sold for a mere five lira.

At Aya Sofya and the Sultanahmet Mosque, the story is the same. Today the area is a mix of tourists who come to to take photos and Muslims who come to pray. However, if you take the time to pause, to breathe in the sticky Bosphorus air, you can see pilgrims. People who risked their lives to come and pray at these magnificent monuments to God. Byzantines and Ottomans stand outside in the courtyards and gardens awaiting the call to prayer or their Sunday sermon. You can feel them. That is, if you take your eye out of the viewfinder.

Everywhere you go in the city, the blue waters of the Bosphorus are not far off. You can feel its breeze and smell its salt. The ferries shuttle businessmen from Europe to Asia and back every twenty minutes. Men defy fate by leaping from the boats across meters of open space just to make their meetings on time. But these are not the only ships. Out of your peripheries, if you choose, you are sure to catch a glimpse of the ghosts. Greek and Romans explored these waters as they filled in the edges of their map. Byzantines used these waters as the trade center of the world. Alongside the steel ferries of today reside these timeless boards, beams and sails, just waiting to be acknowledged.

In 1453, the Byzantines, in a last effort to save their capital and their Empire, strung a chain across the Golden Horn to prevent the approaching Ottoman ships from entering the harbor. Mehmet the Conqueror, one of the greatest Ottoman Sultans, determined to take the city, ordered his ships out of the water. If you look West of Topkapi Palace and North of Sultanamhet, to this day you may see the sails of Mehmet’s navy being rolled across olive-oil soaked timbers into the Golden Horn, sailing across the land and bypassing the Byzantine Empire’s last defense, ushering in the longest lasting of the medieval empires. At least, I see it.

Walking down Istiklal Cadessi (Independence Street) in Taksim you will surely play human pinball as you bounce off the tourists and Turks that pack the street. But, that bustle is a relatively  sensation. As you walk by the Flower Passage, the Fish Market and the Alkazar Theatre, over the noise of the crowds you can hear the artists, writers, academics and politicians as they enjoy their first taste of true Independence in the early days of the Turkish Republic.

This city is alive with its own history. It is impossible to miss. Just as each person is a product of their own life’s experience, so too is this city’s character a result of each day in its history. With New Rome, Constantinople, Byzantium, Istanbul, the past is so rich and full that it is tangible. It hangs in the air. You can taste it, touch it and at times even see it as if all its years were layered over one another.

But, seeing the past, that is the easy part. The theory goes that all time exists at once. Past, present and future, as we see it. So, then, what can be seen in the future of this city? What is written in the cobblestones and what can be read on the faces of Istanbul? First, it is not too grand or too broad to say that the future of this city could be a microcosm for the future of the world. Collisions of cultures and people centuries old have forged this city into a global community. After all these years, it is still where East meets West.

Today, our metro ride provided a telling image. A woman in her early twenties, tattooed and pierced with a striking pink streak through her hair was jolted as the train came to a sudden stop and she bumped into the forty-something woman in front of her. The second woman wore a head scarf, long trousers and a trench coat – typical uniform for Istanbul’s devout Islamic women – and both women laughed while joking in Turkish. Only then did we realized they were mother and daughter.

This generation of Turks is not unlike this generation of young Americans. While their parents may have known only their own culture, history and religion, their children have access limitless information. A generation gap like none other in history. Thanks to the internet, no longer do you have to ask “What do I know?” Instead you ask, “how much do I care to find out?”

With that sudden influence of information, money, business and materialism, this city, like America, could be in danger of consuming its way out of its own culture and character. It won’t, though. Like the mother and daughter laughing on the train, the past and future seem to shake each other’s hand here in Istanbul, just to let one another know, “you’re alright by me.”

This city, this world, will find a balance between pay-day and piety. Istanbul has shown me that it is only a matter of when.

Its Christmas in Tarlabasi

18 Dec
Christmas in Tarlabasi (pronounced TAR-LA-BASH-UGH)


Its Christmas in Tarlabasi

but no one seems to care.

No caroling in the background,

wood fires fill the air.

 

Its Christmas in Tarlabasi

no lights up anywhere.

No church bells ringing in this slum,

just the call to prayer.

 

At the vegetable stand alone

can reds and greens be seen.

Everything else is gray and brown,

no snowy white pristine.

 

A man walks past, his Winston lit

orange tip ember gleams.

He doesn't know its Christmas Day,

doesn't know what it means.

 

Laundry hangs like boughs of holly

drenched in the alley's rain.

The few saved souls walk underneath

where street cats share their pain.

 

There's nothing merry down this road

there's nothing to be gained.

Just joyfully discarded trash,

a bloody Kurban stain.

 

Once inside, over mulled red wine

the saved can laugh and drink.

As they fill up with Christmas cheer,

of home is where they think.

 

The tales come out from Christmas past

every one fond, distinct.

A puppy dog, a skiing trip,

an outdoor skating rink.

 

Outside the melancholy thrives

but here it is safe and light.

Warm and jovial moods take hold

and make the spirits bright.

 

They'll drink and smoke, enjoy the glow

to get to feeling right.

Tarlabasi is not so bad,

on this holiest of nights.

 

Its Christmas in Tarlabasi

but no one seems to care.

Except for a few wandering souls

and the spirit that they share.

 

Its Christmas in Tarlabasi

no carols anywhere.

Except for the laughs of gentle souls,

which ring out like a prayer.

 

 

Are you there, Universe? It’s me, Matt.

23 Sep

Writer’s Note: I try not to abuse your loyal readership by dropping heavy subjects on you too often. But in a middle-of-the-night moment of clarity and lucidity, I wrote this. And, as the scorpion said to the frog, it’s in my nature.

Image from NASA's Hubble Space Telescope, nicknamed God's Eye Nebula.

Image from NASA's Hubble Space Telescope, nicknamed the God's Eye Nebula.

I pick up my pen here, tonight, in my tiny Tarlabasi apartment, very warily. I am unsure whether my talents are up to the task I have my mind set upon, so I will proceed with caution. I intend to describe God as I have come to understand the concept. But, then again, perhaps I am not writing these words myself but transcribing them as they travel past me in the infinite time and space. Who knows?

I was born a Christian. Baptized as a baby, like so many others, by my parents and my Grandfather, who was a Pastor at our local Congregational Church. From what I know of him in this time of his life he was a true shepherd, acting as a Northern Star in the night’s sky to a flock who refused to look up from their Book to notice. He, to this day, is my unspoken spiritual guidance counselor. Always reminding me through his presence and character alone to trust myself, my instincts and my sense of wonder.

I was a Christian. After all, how can you say no to a man who only wanted to love everyone, and for everyone to love one another. It is the simplest and purest message. And one that should have stuck with more of his followers. I wondered, as so many who meandered out of the Church in pursuit of knowledge did – why was this not the central theme? Not accept Jesus or go to hell, but accept love as best you can or live your life devoid of it.

The questions I had and the answers I sought are standard for the intellectually curious and they don’t need to be repeated here. In fact, I couldn’t do them justice. That I found the process of questioning itself to be demonized by most was enough for me. God gave me a brain and I intended to use it to the fullest capacity.

Of course, in faith, questions lead to more questions and rarely lead to answers. Except when your faith is Science. In this I invested. Originally to mankind, religion was the answer to the unanswerable. The Sun was God. The Rain was God. They gave life each day, each season without end. But we learned. We used our brain, our eyes and mostly our time, and found out that we are not the center of our Universe. We orbit the Sun. The rain is the same recycled hydrogen and oxygen that has supplied us for our entire existence. So then, naturally, what of life and death?

Science has not answered all these questions and your guess is as good as mine. However, Science has shown us that we are but a small blue marble orbiting a tiny star on the outer edge of a spiral galaxy – one of millions of galaxies in existence over the breadth of millions of light-years. The idea of a giant man (or woman) heavily invested in whether a teenager masturbates or an African uses a condom becomes ridiculous with this knowledge.

So, I became an atheist. The big A. Became is the wrong word. I titled myself atheist. To show my rejection of the pervasive myth of the giant man in all his incarnations. Yet, here I am, attempting to describe God.

The term atheist was not nihilistic as many seem to think. Rather, it is empowering. It’s liberating. No longer boxed in by religious texts or preconceived notions, finding wonder was easy. People on this Earth search thousands of miles and many lifetimes to see God. Some go crazy trying, while others find him in Rorschach test tortillas shaped like the Holy Virgin. But how many of these people have sat and pondered the magic that is photosynthesis? Or the transformation of a caterpillar into a cocooned soup of matter and finally into a stunning butterfly? How many have thought of the evolution of a plant ovary into a deliciously crisp Granny Smith apple? If you want to find God, it is in the so-called little things.

Suddenly, and much to my own surprise, to deny God was insulting. I saw the organic harmony of it all, the connectedness, not only between people but between everything.

In the beginning… matter explodes. Stars form and stars collapse. Matter, molecules, elements, they travel the light-years and bond to one another, repel one another and create new, different and beautiful things. And around one of these fiery gas balls a planet forms, molten and destructive. After billions of years, it cools off with just the right amount of each element to create a microorganism – life. After another billion years, after failed experiment after failed experiment, a creature comes about with a mind of self-awareness. The machine has become conscious. Was it intentional? No. Was it wonderful? Was there God in the process? Absolutely. Or rather, the whole process is God.

A tree gives you oxygen. We give it carbon dioxide. Dead animals feed us and fertilize the next generation of trees. It goes on.

As humans, we come from apes. Admit it, its okay. Anyone who has seen a couple fight in another language can see it isn’t much different from watching two gorillas stomp around making angry noises at the zoo – it appears very important to them, you don’t understand what is going on and it really won’t matter to anyone in ten minutes anyway. But this evolution is our connection and it too is God.

As humans, this universal connection is mostly felt between us and other humans. Shared humanity. We love. We feel deep tenderness, sympathy, empathy and pity for others. We create babies. Our babies then love and then run the emotional gauntlet as well.

See, God is that sometimes tangible web of connections and relationships between everyone and everything across all of space and time. To acknowledge, accept and rejoice in each of these connections, that is to love. To deny or neglect them is to hate and divide. It is both infinitely simple and infinitely complex.

Want to experience God? Inhale, then exhale. Take oxygen, give carbon dioxide. Fuel your body. Fuel a tree. Same as the apes before you and same as the people next door to you. Inhale. Exhale. Infinitely simple. Infinitely complex. Just breathe…


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